PSA: Everyone Needs Help Sometimes

I love watching stand up, going on hikes and hanging out with my friends… that is unless I am depressed. When you have depression and anxiety, the things you once found fun are hard to even find at all. Ever since I can remember, I have been a worrier and always struggling with an irrational inner voice that has told me I am not worthy, I am full of flaws and that people will leave me if given the opportunity. Saying you have depression or anxiety, is like coming of the closet that most people are in but the stigma surrounding mental health make it seem shameful to admit.

My social media accounts are full of pictures of my puppy, amazing food and snapshots of my travels. From an outside view, there are no panic attacks, no wresting with the evil voice inside my head and certainly no traces of anxiety or depression. It’s easy to feel that you must portray that persona all of the time and the closest thing to a mental breakdown that’s allowed is an inspiring quote and a Pinterest board dedicated to Gloria Steinem quotes.

Once and for all, I want to kick depression and anxiety’s butt. I am tired of being tired and know I can live a life full adventures and excitement with the right help. I am done feeling shameful that I need help and encourage anyone feeling this way to fight the urge to stay in bed and give yourself the opportunity to get help!

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Goal Digger

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With switching jobs, the semester coming to an end and finals, I have been too busy to ask myself how I am doing with all the changes around me. On the surface, school is going pretty amazing, things with my boyfriends are going well and my new job situation could not be better. Usually when there is change in my life, I can be found in fetal position in my bed crying but this time around, I am controlling as much (or actually as little) as I can.

With all of these new changes, it just felt like it was finally time to give myself some new long term and short term goals. My new mantra on life is “it’s awesome to blossom”. So much of the time society tells us it’s lame to be excited but my overall goal is to be more stoked! Just because it’s not new year’s doesn’t mean its too late to be a better you!

My Goals:

Read a book

Go to the beach more

Save money

Learn more about being zen

Get back to doing art

Give back

Get healthy (cut back on all the Delivery Dudes)

Try a new type of yoga

Speak my mind when I need to

Write at least once a week

Travel more

Graduate